Tuesday September 9, 2008

One year ago today...


At seven am i got the phone call. Jerry had been in an acccident and they didn't know how bad it was. He was just going in for his second brain surgery. I think i knew at that moment that he wasn't going to make it. I cried and cried but couldn't bring myself to go to the hospital yet. I went on my day as normal. Babysitting, getting reay for work, making phone calls.

Tiffany got my shift covered at work so as soon as i was done with everything i went to the hospital. I was alone when i got there and made the mistake of going into his room by myself. I really didn't know what to expect. It was a shock. He was on full life support, his head was wrapped in gauze with drains coming out from underneath. His legs were uncovered so i could see his right knee, swollen and purple. There were monitors everywhere making strange noises. I held his hand, warm like always, and told him to wake up. Like it was just that easy. He coughed and it made an alarm go off. A nurse came in to suction out his lungs, i watched as Jerry gadded and blood came up in the suction tube.

slowly his family and our friends came to the hospital, Kristen, Rob, Amanda and Ravon were the first to come. We just sat and waited. going to his room to see him every once in awhile, but mostly just talking and trying to pretend this had never happened.